Let it be

You were a little ball of cotton when you first came home. Unable to bark or jump, you slept most of the time. It took a while to potty train you, and when you were finally ready, we let you roam around the house and even sleep in any bed as you pleased.

Then you grew fast. Real fast, but you were still adorable and affectionate as any dog could be. You spent a lot of time in solitude waiting for us to come home, and you were always overjoyed when we returned. You despised showers and loved beef jerky and kisses. Despite your failed attempt to mate, you were still a stud. I guess I just thought you’d be here for a few more years.

I didn’t know you were barely holding on to see us one last time before you left. I would have given you a more proper send off, but I’m sorry time was short. And I keep asking myself if it’s worth having a pet if you have to say goodbye eventually. And the answer is definitely a yes. I would never have known such a loyal companion to cheer up those dark times in my life. So here’s a small ode to the greatest, most affectionate dog I’ve ever known/owned.

I don’t usually do this, but tonight I really miss everyone. It’s been a wonderful year at hope church learning and growing through the word and the fellowship of all these people that I can call my family. It never hit me that the school year is done, and that people are actually going home for the entire summer or even worse… forever.

Seniors, I will miss you so much when you guys leave. Your presence at hope has been such a comfort and blessing for me, kinda like a safety net. Even though banquet’s been done with for a while, it’s still hard to grasp the concept that some of you will be leaving sd permanently.

With all the hectic moving and storage going on in my apartment, I no longer feel like this is my home. I used to hate change, and I still don’t like it, but I’m getting used to it. Changes can be good… especially this change that may happen in the near future.. (:

I’m so overwhelmed with stress and change, but even more overwhelmed with blessings. I hope I can take it just one day at a time.

tragedies should bring unity, not drama.

It’s amazing how small and worthless your current sufferings become when you’re faced with the inevitable loss of a loved one. It’s also amazing how meaningless possesions become in the face of a loss.

“blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted” -Matthew 5:3-4

But beyond the amazing, beyond the incomprehensible, is the sacrifice that my savior gave for me. He became the poor in spirit for us; He became our weakness, and overcame death so that we don’t have to go through this alone. Yet, I still manage to tune out his grace and focus on myself. I wish I wasn’t so conflicted.

So i finally got a new car! It’s a 1996 infiniti g20 with manual transmission of course (;

Although it’ll never be the car that my crx was… it’s at least comfortable, manual, peppy, and boxy (I have no idea why I like boxy cars). I think this car matches me fairly well, at least much better than that piece of crap celica.

So here’s to a new beginning. Even though I’ll never modify this car like my crx, I hope it gives me a few years of driving bliss.

hey guys, please look out for my crx. it was stolen sometime between 11 pm on september 30th and 10 am of october 1. It was red, had some gold wheels on there which should be pretty flashy.Stolen from Crossroads apartment complex in La Jolla.

for all i know, it’s in mexico right now. please come back to me.

I’m here (: